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| Your Birthdate: September 8 | 
Watch out Donald Trump! You've got a head for business and money.
You'll make it rich some day, even if you haven't figured out how yet.
A supreme individualist, you shouldn't get stuck in a corporate job.
Instead, make your own way - so that you can be the boss.
Your strength: Your undying determination
Your weakness: You require an opulent lifestyle
Your power color: Plum
Your power symbol: Dollar sign
Your power month: August |
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[21 Jan 2008|05:53pm] |
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I dont feel like going through and editng all my entrys to fix the date. But this is getting REALLLY annoying. If I didnt love this screen name for its laughable value id just make a new one.
But c'mon, RotinPieces? Ive had this thing forever. The screen name at least, cause I had it as a Ujournal before this.
Anyways ya, I deleted my last LJ entry for obvious reasons (to me at least).
I've been dating Jay for over a month now.. lol...
Ok, so Im really fucked up today. I've cried for the last 2 hours. Theres a good chance that my grandmother is going to die tomorrow. Remembering all the fun i used to have as a child with her, and how I grew up and stopped caring, and how we ruined her life.. it kills me... I just want to die. I miss her so much, I feel terrible. We ruined her life... we took down her house beneath her and moved her around and all she wanted was to go home.
Ok.. more later.. dinner time then waiting for Jay to call and off to his house for a while.
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[16 Nov 2007|09:56pm] |
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Okay, A quick overview of the past few weeks of my life:
[I pissed off a lot of people.]
[I co-founded a suicide club. Haha.]
[I had a relationship for 5 days. Im not counting it.]
[I went shopping for a weekend in Maine. It was awesome.]
[I began receiving 4 shots once every week. It sucks.]
[I decided to begin updating this agian]
My comments: 1 day ago,
37 weeks ago
Why do I still have this thing?
That 37 week ago one was stil back when me and Kelllie played neopets. What happened to us KEllie? We were so care free.
I appologize ofor the awful spelling. Im copying a Carmen Electra work out tape for my sister, and its causing my computer to lag like hell.
Hey? Whay happened to posting your mood for the day? Of course. It shows up after I get the error.
I wish this damn thing would let me change my pic..
Error updating journal: Client error: Invalid argument(s): Invalid year value. Apparently I messed up the dates on some of my old entries. God dam nit. Welcome to the year 2007
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[05 Nov 2006|11:11pm] |
...O.M.G.
hi.
I forgot this thing existed.
Its past my curfew. If I dont forget again. Ill write about life. Yay =3
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[20 Feb 2006|05:27pm] |
So. I ended up falling asleep during the sunrise sometime after 6.
Ha.
I'm talking to Kellie now, god I miss her, I haven't seen her in months. I've been keeping up pretty well with bass though, I printed out a shitload of Nightwish, The Cure, London After Midnight (fucking easy) and other tabs. I can't wait to get together with her so I can hook up that 200 dollar amp and actually have a reason to use it. Them rather.
I really can't go back and forth between IMs and typing shit here. I always forget...
Ah well... It could be from lack of sleep too. I got up around noon, usually I sleep for like, 12 fucking hours. Huge waste of my life but, whatever.
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[20 Feb 2006|05:14am] |
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So it's 5:15 in the am, and I've only had one cup of coffee several hours ago.
Im quite tired im just... not in the mood to sleep.
Im hoping that I can see the sunrise, but I don't know how much longer im going to make it.
I talked to my co-worker till about 4:30 and then i've pretty much been entertaining myself with neopet (haha) games since then.
How childish!
I downloaded Stan by Eminem today. Im not sure why but I like listening to that... can I really call it a song? As well as some Jap music (Ha) that I used to like a while back and I wanted to see if I still do.
I tried to change my LJ icon but i've been having some issues so I guess its stuck as Valo for a while.
I spent about 4 hours working on this CSS shit for my myspace, it was really cool it had little thumbnails of the people from my "Who I want to Meet" list, and when you mouseovered them they got bigger! But apparently that counts as Javascript so myspace wouldn't accept it. I was pissed but, whatever. It was still fun and gave me something to do. My sister thinks I should go to college for web design now, I disagree. I really don't know what I want to go for.
So, Im considering going to junior prom. Im going to try to talk Hillary into going with me though cause I know lindsey says she'd hang out with me and stuff but she's alot more outgoing then me and I wouldn't want to hold her or anyone else back. I highly doubt Hillary will agree but, im going to try.
One final note, my ass really hurts from this stupid chair!
Haha. Goodnight.. morning.. ah.... sunrise yet? Nope nothing.. zzz...
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[18 Feb 2006|04:10pm] |
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I hate being lied to.
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[16 Feb 2006|11:50pm] |
My god.
I just read through my LJ. All the way back to the first entry,
okay skimmed,
And I was one strannnnge little child.
So im still upset, and probably will be for a while.
But I just played some bass, and drank a rockstar, and now im feeling pretty good.
Maybe this vacation is just what I need.
But my god,
IM FUCKING FREEZING!.
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[16 Feb 2006|10:22pm] |
I still laugh at this screen name.
I made it up during my eminem phase oh so long ago.
What a retard I was. (am)
I think im going to keep this LJ for a long time.
Just to laugh at myself.
And my teen angst.
My guitar teacher, like my mother, told me college will be the best years of my life.
Well I don't think I can wait that long.
Damn High school.
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[16 Feb 2006|03:04pm] |
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Things aren't getting any better.
And I don't think they will.
I just need time I guess, I wish it was easier to change your feelings.
I don't want vacation;
Work-Nothing-Work-Nothing-Work.
You know, animals can die from lack of socialization.
Of course my mom said she'd hang out with me,
Yeah, thats great, do I really have that little amount of friends?
I know, some people will say "Oh I'll do something with you!"
But then we never really will end up doing anything.
I think the only thing I've learned this week is;
I cry too easily. Fucking weak am I.
And that im a bitch, and that I like to complain.
3 things I knew already, but just became even more apparent.
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[15 Feb 2006|02:45pm] |
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So, Probably most of the people who read this already know I had a really shitty day. But I like to complain, so let me recap events.
Today I caused a huge fight between the Warchol brothers.
It started with me and Brian passing notes. Basically they were just us making fun of each other, I was calling him gingerkid, irish, twtich, etc. and he was calling me emo (I was already relatively sad today) and twitch (I started freaking out when they passed around a jar of black widow's) and stuff like that. Then Garry took that note and him and Jason burned it. So then we just started passing another one, however when Jason tried to grab this one Brian said "What's his problem?" And I was like "I'm his problem" and Brian just looked at me for a little while then said "I know". But then Garry got that note too. So we started passing a third note, this time it talked about Jason. I was curious what exactly he knew. All he kept saying was "Everything." Eventually I got him to write that he knew all about what we talked about on AIM and on about my feelings for Jason. This time, Jason got the note. Brian managed to grab it from him and crumple it into a ball and hold it really tightly and then they litteraly got in this fist fight wrestling match, I didn't know what to do I really didn't want Jason to get the note. He did. He got pissed, threw it away. Brian came back over to our desks swearing about how much he wanted to punch Jason and kill him. The bell rang soon after and on the way out Jason caught up to Brian and said something too him that I didn't hear, I could tell he was pissed though cause as we walked down the hall Brian flipped him off before going down the stairs.
Now that I've recapped that whole thing here's my actual feelings on the situation, as you know I really like Jason, and I consider myself friends with Brian as well. I feel really bad that im basically the cause of the entire arguement. Im also afraid that Jason will stop IMing me, I have a feeling that he really doesn't like me, but I still want to talk to him and be friends. We've had some pretty funny conversations thus far. I have Chem first thing in the morning, its going to be awkward but im going to try and not let it be, i'll still talk to Brian and all them, and Jason will probably ignore my real life existance again. (I don't blame him, even if he did like me what would he say? I'd be the same way...)
Okay.. I think thats everything, except for the fact that I have to go to work in this bitchy mood.
God damn it.
=/ I really need a hug. Hell I need 3509825098223523952 hugs.
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[14 Feb 2006|11:30pm] |
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Another V-day come and gone.
Wasn't too interesting. I got a really pretty peach/orange/red rose from my mom though and then I told Kev to get me a beta fish, cause poor Alucard died a few weeks ago. =(
I'd have to say the most interesting thing about today, was when Chris "Kurisu" Butler IMed me at 11:15 to wish me a happy valentines day. (Yes, he's still with Laura, 8 months now I believe he said?)
So I talked to him for a while about college and shit.
He's encouraging my photoshop talents, which is good because I haven't recieved a decent comment on my art in ages. (Probably because I don't do much anymore.) So. Im glad he IMed me I guess. I realized I still have the picture he drew me over a year ago hanging on my cork board. But I mean, its a really good drawing, why should I take it down? A week or so ago I did the math, I broke up with him in October 2004 which means i've been single.. oh.. 15 months.
Yeah. Im not counting Andy.
They were some of the best 15 months of my life, like when I don't have a serious crush, I don't really care if Im single. But when I really start to like someone. Damn. Fuck. Shit. Fucking suckkkss dude.
Ha.
I think maybe I need some sleep.
I have a huge test tomorrow morning.
Fucking MURADIAN DIEEE.
I wonder what would happen if she saw this...
I had actual legitimate things to say here. Forgot. Oh well. You get an update once a month. Why do I still use this again?
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Can't answer that myself. OH WELL. I like spilling my boring guts to Ashley and Kelly and Kellie and whomever else may happen upon this.
I guess?
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[11 Feb 2006|01:22am] |
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Sometimes I wish I could just fade away....
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[08 Feb 2006|03:15pm] |
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So. Im kind of nervous.The past week I've been running around saying "I have wednsday off!" Then I looked at what I wrote down and I actually had written that I had tuesday off. So I was like "Okay!" and just... didn't go to work. Didn't call to make sure or anything. I should've. But didn't. Oh well.
I actually enjoyed parts of school today. Heres the breakdown.
History; Fap talked and talked and talked. No work to be done at least.
Algebra; SUPER easy test.
Chem; Got called mean several times, went to the assembly. Got yelled at by Holly Davis for talking. Haha.
English; Wasn't too bad. We did this weird grammer shit that I don't understand and theres a test on tomorrow, so it gave me time to go over it with her and get un-confused.
Lunch: Funnest of the day. Amanda shoved ketchup packets in my eye. She was like "Ketchup!" and apparently misjudged the space between us, and shoved them in my eye.
Then, if your going to read nothing else read this; Im standing in front of the classroom, and Amandas running at me really fast. And like, right as she jumps on my to hug me, this little kid (freshman I think,) walks bye and goes "Rawr."
English: Blah.
French: Talked about past trips to France the teachers taken.
Okay, so it wasn't that interesting, I guess it was just Jason calling me mean (I still don't know why, I guess he sees the inevitablity that he's going to lose our argument). And the whole Amanda thing. Im glad I sat with her one awkward day when I had no friends. Cause she's like, awesome!.
Im so proud of myself, finally all 8 of my top 8 have me on their top 8 as well. I bothered my coworker Dan and he became my 7th and then I was talking to my sister and she was like "You're on my top 8...." So I added her. And sweeeet. -proudness- I know, it's a stupid goal but, im still proud. I copied Kellie in alphabetizing them cause I didn't want it to seem like I cared who went first. Plus that puts my sis first and we've been bonding lately xD.
Well theres another load of nonsense for you. I was in a typing mood, what can I say.
|EDIT| I just took a walk with Kelly. My ears and hands hurt from the cold though. OWwwie. We talked about boys. Haha. She drove me home. Two streets xD. Her car smelled good. I honestly didn't really like walking Sundance Alone. Time went by so slowly. But walking him with Kelly was fun, if I see her go by again im gonna go with her.
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[16 Jan 2006|02:51pm] |
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I have got to be the laziest person.
I sleep all day, get up and go on the computer or play videogames, then bitch about how im doing my homework at 10 o'clock at night.
Because it clearly isn't my fault.
I wish Hillary didn't have a 'play date' with Jullie today. We were up talking on the phone until 2:30 when her phone finally died. It was a hell of a lot of fun. We were on the phone for like..... 4-5 hours in the middle of the night talking about nothing. We spent some time quoting movies and trying to guess them, singing like shit, rambling about nothing, talking about how hillary can't pee because if she opens her door the alarm will go off, talking about hammers in shoes, and like I said, nothing. Complete nonsense with my rockstar and her red bull. I love not having school and her mom actually not checking in on her for once.
Super Great.
I've decided though. In the (far) future, Im moving somewhere were, it's not always warm but, it at least NEVER snows. I hate the snow. Hatehatehatehatehate. Passionately. Though, I did enjoy snowboarding back in the day. Even if I SUCKED. I'd like to do it again sometime.
I can't wait till my sister leaves again. Stupid month long college vacations. She got a job at Hollister so now I have to get a ride to school so she can use the car.
Rawr.
Well.
At least I have a car. I guess I have to look on the bright side.
Even though I stood in the bitter cold for 20 minutes waiting for my mom to pick me up from work because when I went to leave for work it took me 10 minutes just to get the fucking doors open and then I didn't have enough time to scrap the ice off the windshield.
Seriously.
Well im going to go play video games, Ill be back at 10 to complain about all the homework I didn't do.
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[14 Jan 2006|10:13pm] |
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I wanted to get a London After Midnight poster and I ended up buying two, a record, and a pin. Haha. I don't even have a place to put one poster let alone 2.
Wow. My CD started playing again. I left Psycho Magnet in my CD player and it went silent like 10 minutes ago. Hidden track. How original of them.
Thats okay, If I ever made a CD i'd do it to.
Yeah. I love my waterbed.
And I really have nothing else to say.
Except I have a shitload of homework to do.
Damn.
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[10 Jan 2006|10:46pm] |
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Today I hate boys.
Talking to Kellie and Dan calmed me down a bit and in a sudden burst of energy I ran around taking pictures and goofing off and stuff. But as the night draws on and I get tired I feel a bit sad again. In a few of the pictures I took I honestly looked like I man. I hate the shape of my face, but there really isn't anything I can do about that. Dan was trying to help me with photography and persuade me into being my own model for a while. I tried it, it came out ok I guess...
But I really just feel like I was being used. Until something prettier came along. And that hurts. I mean... -sigh- why do I get myself into these things? What really sucks is that Hillary and Kellie warned me about him. And I know if I complain to Hillary she's just going to be like "I told you so" Only in harsher words, bringing back memories. Uhg. It's going to take a few weeks but i'll be fine.
Im just really sick of being lonely. Kevin is over my house every night and that really doesn't help. Even when my sister treats him like shit he still comes over. I want a kevin of my own. (haha). Seeing them just makes me feel kind of empty.
I don't really want to go to bed, because the minute I leave the computer and go back to my quite room im going to start thinking. Ill try to read, and maybe listen to some music. Something like KMFDM or... most DSI songs. But things like AFI and London After Midnight, Nightwish and Andrew Lloyd Webber. They'd all remind me. Even Max Resist would just because how the last time I saw him the last thing we did was argue about racism. Heehee. He works with niggers, what can I expect of him? He works with shit thus he is shit.
I bought Red Eye today. 20 bucks. Then I also bought Hillary Razed In Black "Damaged" And in order to avoid like, a dollar of shipping I bought myself London After Midnight "Psycho Magnet" Hehe. Ill be glad to say I sponsored LAM. Even though I got it off amazon so they probably won't get as much for it.
Sean Brennan = Sexy.
Of course it doesn't help that today in Chem Brian was throwing corks at me all class!
Gave me a headache after a while. I'd try to through them back but I have horrible aim.
I guess I should do my algebra now. She's going to collect and grade it, what sucks is I don't have all the questions written down so the most I can get is like a 70 if I get them all right.
Damn.
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| Ashley tagged me |
[17 Nov 2005|10:38pm] |
Name 5 of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick 5
people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use
things that someone else has already used. Tag 5 people on your list.
1. not waking up till 1 in the afternoon
2. being curled up with someone you care about (Been a while =/)
3. hanging out with your friends and just laughing for hours (unless you have laughitis)
4. dressing up for the hell of it and making people feel happy
5. walking in the moonlight
Uhm, I don't HAVE 5 friends.
Kellie?
Pheebz, if you haven't done this, totally tagged.
HEATHER, I know you're out there!
-heavy breathing-
Damn.
Uhhh...
uhm.
LOOK, A TALKING MONKEY.
-runs-
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[17 Nov 2005|06:54pm] |
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So, my last entry said I'd update this more often. Yeah.. clearly didn't.
Excuses:
I was grounded for a few weeks after I swore at my dad (I had a justified reason.)
And then.. I don't know.
IM SORRY.
Anyways, I guess the other reason is I really don't have anything relevent to say. The only things I could say are complaints, but hell this is a journal so.. complaining is part of the journal process right?
I have an idea! For those of you who only want the good news, just.... keep reading. Want to hear it all, click below (fools.)
( Don't click here unless you want to read my complaints. )
Im so glad though, I found my role of film from my trip to NJ over the summer. Yayyy! Or wait... was I in Rhode Island? FUCK oopes. I was in RI wasn't I? HAHAHA. My bad. The mansions were so pretty.. they confused me. So i'll be sending that out soon, probably won't get it back for two weeks. And then I only have one picture left on this role, and in order to use it im making myself finish my homework. Haha, then when I finish it ALL im treating my self to a new role of film.
I love taking pictures!
But I have work to do, bye loves. <3
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[23 Oct 2005|01:41pm] |
Im going to update this thing more now. I like, hardly ever do, and when I do, I rant about things people don't care about...
I will however, give you an update.
{Called Andy, He ANSWERED! Told me this huge elaborate lie he had to tell Nikky in order to get her to not sleep over his house last night. Had to go take a shower, working at 3, appologized for not calling lately...invited me to go shopping with him and his friends for an hour up in Millbury. Ha. Im probably not going to... I can't drive.}
Regular Checking $200.00
Regular Savings $1,346.70
HM.. that's what I had last time........???? Im supposed to get direct diposite from work, They should've put my next pay check in there!
You're all jealous of my meager earnings. You know it.
Nothing significant to say.
Bye.
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